Sunday, December 5, 2010

My Straight Day

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Wow well day two of being back, and of course I am also posting in the dead of night again hahaha.

So first things first, since I finally went back on blogger I decided to catch up on some blogs I have stopped reading. The first one I caught up on was Timmy’s. The first thing I saw was a post by his brother, so I decided to see what it said. Holy shit I had no idea that Timmy had died two months ago. That just sucks utterly. He was so witty and funny (and perverted, which is not always a bad quality), but he was alos just a great gent and it was extremely easy to comprehend that based on what he exhibited to us through his blog. My condolences to Timmy’s family and I hope that can grieve, but only for as long as is practical, ruining your life because a sibling or child died is a horrible way to cope with the death, especially since the dead person would probably be pissed you are ruining your life that way. (wow that was a horribly award tangent, sorry).

The next blog I caught up on was Sam’s and I really do hope he meets someone that wants to be his boyfriend, especially someone that is not your best friend because no matter what the break up will still strain your friendship if the relationship ever amounts to that disappointment.

Also while catching up I noticed that Jason Carwin has gone missing again, I do hope he is doing well and is happy at whatever school he decided to go to.

Now what happened in my life today was slightly interesting. I woke up at 8:25 and put the dogs out and fed them. I then started catching up on Hellcats until 9:50 when I left to go to my college place to take an ACT Diagnostics test. I then had a meeting with my councilor where I was told of some awesome film school summer programs which I should totally do if I want get a better leg up to get into NYU, especially since there is one AT NYU!

After that it was 1:40 and I decided to get some Subway and came home at 2 and watched another episode of Hellcats, which apparently has the actor who plays Brian Kinney in Queer as Folk playing the Law Professor at Lancer Academy. I then left for the school at 2:50 because of this football game I agreed to join because I need to get some footage of people playing football for the film my group is (possibly) doing in Filmmaking. It was a really great game and fun. I ripped to people’s shirts, one was an Ohio State one at the armpit and the other was a CAL shirt which I somehow pulled an entire patch of cloth from the middle of the shirt (another guy on my team ripped the back of one guys shirt off and the hole kept growing larger and the game went lol). So let me show you what they said happened in the game:

All Stars loose to Ripped Shirts

Sean: Most valuable linemen, Robert BP,
This game was dedicated to those valuable shirts that dedicated themselves to protecting our skin agianst rbp and were lost in battle. U will be remebered.

Offensive Player of the Game:

Defensive Player of the Game:
Robert BP

Special Teams Player of the Game
Kyle (23 yard feild goal) Michael Z (2 returns for TDs)

Best Tackle:
Roy on Raphael, Robert on Jeremy

Best Play:
Double Reverse to Long Gain Krishnan
Kyle to Brady 29 yard pass
Sean to Jeremy 32 yard pass

Biggest Fight:
Robert BP-Chris

Cutest Player:
Michael Z

Biggest Stud:
RBP for doing awesome
Cullen for playing hard after he puked

So yeah that is pretty much a summary of what happened lol. It was a lot of fun and great conditioning, and since it was tackle football it was great to beat up Jeremy, apparently I nearly knocked one of his teeth out, but, hey, he skinned my knee so everything is fine ahahha. After the game everyone went to Taco Bell and I agreed to pay for all the people whose shirts I destroyed to help lose the game hahaha. I then went to Trader Joe’s and Safeway to get football because the house needed it. hahaha. I then went to Trader Joe’s and Safeway to get football because the house needed it.

So I went home and watched more Hellcats. Mark almost came over, but he apparently had a band party, which I think is a lie, but whatever I don’t really care. I finally am now caught up with Hellcats though lol. I then went upstairs to my room and decided to play Call Of Duty: Black Ops and saw my friends were on and decided to join their game and see how lone it would take them to notice me in there. It took them four games to notice me ahha, but whatever it was fun and everything. I am now in bed typing this at 1:55 AM and I think it is time to sleep since I have quite a bit of homework to do tomorrow before the big football banquet. Also my parents are coming back tomorrow night, so yeah.

Life Putters and Wanders,

Robert BP

Saturday, December 4, 2010

It Has Been a While

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Well I am back!

Hey guys, this is Robert and I am happy to say I am back at least for this post and hopefully more. I have been quite busy with school and football and everything, but now I can finally say I am now able to commit some time to blogging again. I mean I have definitely missed it. I really liked getting comments, especially from new bloggers who I have yet to learn of! So I guess comment peoples, well only if you actually read this hahah, I still have no idea how many people have actually read my blog, nor do I really care though, but it is always nice to know some people care enough to have some feelings they want to tell me about what I have posted.

Now on to what has been happening in my life since I left off. I went through football season, I played a bit and I even got a fumble recovery on Defense and I never play defense (I actually just don’t like defense so I avoid it whenever possible, but once coach puts you in, you are in lol), but of course I had to embarrass myself and slide of the field! School has been alright, I have some awesome teachers and some not so awesome ones. I currently have 2 A-s 2Bs 2B-s, the classes I really need to bring up are Tig/PreCalc Honors which I only have a B- because of one test which I totally failed, 18/40, and it was just a really off day! Oh yeah on the football thing again, my team went 5-5 and almost when to playoffs, but we did not get in though we really deserved to be in, whatever it sucks, but that happens.

Now on to today, which started when I woke up, put my dogs out, and fed them at 7:15. My parents are away at Maui so I am in charge of the dogs and stuff yeah lol. I then decided not to have any breakfast, I just was not hungry, and brought my dogs in at 7:32 and left my house at 7:34 for school. Okay so I live relatively close to school, it can take between 10 minutes to 3 minutes to get to school based on traffic. Today it was one of those 3 minute days and I blame leaving 3 minutes earlier than normal lol. So I got there with 10 minutes to spare.

I went into my English class, the first period of the day, and started to talk to this girl about Glee and while talking my teacher joined in, she also watches Glee religiously lol, but it does make sense since she is also the drama teacher. Then class started and the teacher made the announcement that she did not feel like doing grammar so we are not gonna do it today AND that since our program is having a comedy group come over and do a show, if we can get 85% of the students in our program to come (234 students) we will either get to choose to not take the Grammar final or the Vocab final. The class went crazy; she is a great teacher and keeps things interesting. We then finished Act II in Othello and watched that act of the film.

Then class ended and I went to the filmmaking lab to take out a camera and tri-pod to use in the making of a movie trailer that we have to make for the class. I then printed out a copy of our script treatment and went to my history teacher to get the trailer approved historically. That is where the problems really began. We pretty much learned that our story was extremely flawed in comparison to how it should be. The teacher of filmmaking, who everyone hates now, has fed us the wrong information and corrupted our projects, so now we are fucked and pissed about this project. Then class started and we worked on some DBQs we wrote, I did okay for my second, but I still need to work more on them. We are still in the precursors to the Civil War in AP US History.

Then, after lunch, where nothing really happened I just went to the library and read about Richard Bachman then left for Chemistry. So I think Chem is my best subject this year, I just naturally understand most of the stuff that is talked about in class, and when I took the test I felt confident in how I did. I received a 58/59 because of the 2 points of extra credit my group and I earned on Wednesday, so I did quite well lol. Then we did a lab about valence electron shell patterns where we got the atom balls and the sticks and made diagrams. Then school finally ended and I left for home.

When I got home I watched some tv for a but until I decided to take a shower and then get ready to go to the big football game tonight. I fed the dogs and then brought then in before I left. I then went and picked up a friend of mine, Kyle, and we complained about our filmmaking teacher on the way to the Falafel Drive-In . When we got there I saw Sean and Jeremy and I ordered a large falafel sandwich and a banana milkshake. OMG the food there is so damn delicious, like wow just amazing! I then drove to the big game and it was really fun. The team I wanted is going to state now. During the game Jeremy introduced us to a friend of his from his old school who is the quarter back of their team, and I have to say he is pretty damn cute ahahha, also he liked making fun of Jeremy so I liked him (don’t worry we all joke around with each other, I mean Sean nickname is Ohio and that is all that most football players call him, and Jeremy is Bubba because he apparently looks like a Bubba and I am RBP). After the good game we all left And decided to meet at 7-11 where I had to go to the bathroom. I saw this one had one so I decided to go in and use it, but when I came back out to the main store the guy was pissed off because I did not ask, but I said I was sorry, but h was just really pissed all night. We then bought our food and stood around Bubba’s car talking about random stuff for half an hour. During that time we noticed the Pilot, the car I am not driving while my parents are away and the Saab is broken, still had its lights on, but I made the stupid decision to not turn them off. When I went to start the car it would not start, so after a whole bunch of time we finally got someone to bring jumper cables and I jumped my car.

That was the 5th time I have had to jump a car. The first was when my battery first broke, then the second time was a but later, and the third time was while I was on a date, the fourth was when I had to help Ohio jump his stupid Volvo Station Wagon which only has a nub for positive, and now I have done it a fifth time. When everything was hooked up, which I had to do all of them because everyone else was to afraid to be electrocuted, which is ironic because are gays not supposed to be the ones that can do mechanical things? Yeah I just broke another stereotype of the gays in comparison to me, YAY!

I then drove home, kept the car on, walked the dogs, and then turned off the car. I am now tired and sleepy in bed and I have an ACT Diagnopstic tomorrow at 10 AM and then a tackle football game at 3 PM where I will also be getting some footage for the movie trailer that is currently in limbo.

Well that is all I have for now, but expect for frequent posts from me and if you ever have a question or need me to clarify anything just ask me!

Life Putters and Wanders,


Wednesday, August 25, 2010


WOW! Well this is unexpected! I have a date on Saturday! Not with L, but hey he stopped talking to me, so I guess his lose! I will have to explain later if he lets me, but I ma just saying, he is such a great guy and I seriously can not wait till Saturday! I may have a Scrimmage on Friday, but I will just use this as inspiration to work harder then! I have film and an SAT diagnostic on Saturday as well, but I will just use it as a reason to work all the harder towards this reward! I am seriously in disbelief! But I am just going to say, this has been the BEST summer ever! Let's just hope school is just like how the summer has been! I am going to actually work on my APUSH assignment now that he is asleep....and I know he is sleeping because he does not do that amazingly! Ok well I have to go! I will update you, but trust me Twitter will be getting it all first! Ok well I am going!

Life Putters and Wanders,


Sunday, August 15, 2010

Two Little Stories

Well it seems I get ready to blog and I totally forget what I have done before to see if I need to update you all. BRB!

Well okay yeah nothing has really happened with my sister, she still likes me more and we are getting along better and everything. So yeah that is good ahhaha.

While checking my blog I decided to look at what day my first blog post was because of a comment Billy made. Well I guess I am happy to report, tomorrow will be the 6 month anniversary of my blog! I do not know how I was able to blog everyday from February 16th till June 29th, but I did. In that time I came out to Kathryn, Bri (because Kathryn used her to figure me out lol), A, Rosie (my sister), and Nick (this week because I was hanging with A and he is great friends with A and I just decided to blurt it out, actually I do have something to say about that...later though). My life has been so different since I found blogs over a year ago and started my blog around 6 months ago and I do not regret it.

Okay now I have to decide whether to tell the Nick story or the Twitter story. Eehh lets go chronologically.

So Wednesday I was hanging with A and Nick at Starbucks. We were outside and there was a lull in the conversation and I decided to use it to just say, “So Nick you know I am gay, right?”

Nick responds, “Yeah, Robert, I do. And I saw your blog on this guy’s computer.” I start to think, FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!! WHERE DID HE SEE MY BLOG???!?!?!??!

So I ask him, “Where did you see my blog?” I was trying not to sound worried, but I was freaking out.

So what happened is, Nick was hanging with A and a gay friend of A’s from All-State for band, Justin. Justin knows me….well not really KNOWS me….but he knows be because I “connected” with him on the GYC. I think Justin looked through my profile and decided to open the link at the bottom to my blog. I then think that Nick and A came over to hang or something and, since Justin had my blog open on his computer, Nick saw it. I think he looked through it and read my profile and thought, “OH I know this guy!”

So yeah I do not know if those are the facts, but the next time I get him alone I am going to ask. But yeah, Justin, if you do read my blog, then I guess I should say thanks a bit because I mean it did make coming out to Nick just that little bit easier….well that and A telling him ahahha.

Now it is time to make all of those crazy ass tweets I have been tweeting make sense!

So Friday I was on some chat rooms because I was bored. I was looking for guys in CA to talk to. So this one guy says he is 17 and from CA, so I decide to private him. I ask where he lives and he says the Bay Area. I say me too, and where from. He tells me where, and I decide to Google it. He is ONE hour away! I get really excited and tell him that. He becomes interested and we decide to chat on MSN.

So we chat on MSN and the first thing I see is his profile picture…I DIE!!! I mean, you know the pictures of the guys I put on here, well let’s just say eh is one of them!!!! So I tell him that. He totally denies that and asks for a picture of me. I send him my new profile picture and he says, “dammmm ur a cutie”. So we then just start talking and we do a really long Q&A and I start it develop on crush on him. And I mean I think he might have one on me IDK. So we just talked and got to know each other, and I mean apparently he is a nerd, loves to read, we have similar interest in music, he is so cute, he is nice, he is romantic, and best of all he is weird! I mean I have no idea why he even thinks I am cute, but I don’t really care. So at 10:05 my parents get home and I decide to greet them. I say “BRB parents.”

I go downstairs and talk to them for 5 minutes, and then I come back upstairs and see he is offline. I start to get really sad because I now think he is uninterested and it just kills me. I mean he seemed really into me and I just mope around and decide to just go to sleep.

I wake up 3 times that night. Each time I check my computer to see if eh is on or said sorry or something. I then just figure eh blocked me and it is over. I am sad all the next day, but I still cannot get him out of my head. I check MSN constantly, but I do decide to try and get some work done. At 5, he comes on. I become really happy just to see he did not block me! I decide not to IM him unless he IMs me first. A few seconds later L IMs and saying, “heyyyyyyyyyy sowwy about last nite we lost everything tv internet so lame” That just made, we talked for an hour and I really do hope we meet soon.

Okay I am going to stop here, I actually need to try and do stuff today. Well okay bye.

Life Putters and Wanders,


Sunday, August 8, 2010

Two Steps Forward!!

Okay guys I am sorry that I have not been updating you all lately! I have a feeling that I am probably going to be updating less and less and time goes on and school starts, so I am so sorry, but hey my dream is NYU and that means doing some more work!

Now I should say that I have some good news, some great news, and some news I REALLY want to talk about but A (the guy I met with) is not going to let me tell you all!

So let me tell you what happened on Wednesday. So the night before I got to talk to Kathryn for a bit and she told me that she could meet at Starbucks from anytime from 1-7. I figured that that sometime in that time frame would be the best time to meet A there and then hang with Kathryn after. So on Wednesday I finally AIMed A (after being called by Kathryn twice, once RIGTH before a recording I was a part of lol) So we decided to meet at 3:15 and I pick him up and he hang at Starbucks. So I leave a little late, but I go and pick him up and I really have to say he is cute and well you can also tell he is gay from his fashion sense, though really it was only obvious because he put his sunglasses on the color of his shirt and that just said, “GAY!” to me.

But yeah so we go to Starbucks and we both just get water lol. Kathryn saw us and just was Kathryn lol. So we decided to go outside for more privacy and we talk for like 3 minutes when Kathryn come over and just asks the worst questions in the worst way to A. It was kind of really funny lol, but also EXTREMLY awkward, especially for A. She eventually left and we got to talking. He did a lot and we just talked. It was nice, I mean I really got to know him (I already knew him because he was my first friend here when I moved to where I am now from San José, but we stopped talking so much in 6ht and 7th grade). One thing that was interesting is that he really had no idea I would be gay, but I suspected him for quite a while, so I was not so surprised lol. We also talked about what we have done; he has done so much more than me at a WAY faster pace than me! I have literally done nothing, I mean never kissed, or even held hands in a crushy-loving way. To tell the truth I am a little jealous, but the thing is I don’t think he has really had any truly special relationships, though I mean I have no idea if I will have one, but still.

That is pretty much it with A since I cannot day what happened later because I want to be my friend, but trust me it is nothing special and nothing happened.

Now on to my other news. So on Thursday, while taking a shower before my internship, I decided I will come out to my sister. I never got a good chance to do it on Thursday, but I did get my chance on Friday. I had an SAT/College/School meeting. I had to have my sister drive me there and also pick me up. I wondered which way I should tell my sister and figured the way back will be easier. So she drops me off in not the best mood so I figure I am probably not going to do it. I go in talk to my person and learn my SAT Diagnostic score; an 1800, I need a 2000 or higher to be competitive for NYU. So I am actually motivated to do the stuff to get better now ahhaha.

We ended early so I texted my sister and she came. As she was driving I mentioned that I had to go to drop off some football stuff at the team mom’s house. SO she started driving there. She then mentioned something that made me think I could actually use that as segue to coming out. So I said, “Speaking of that, I am gay.” She said, “Repeat that?” So I did. She only replied “SERIOUSLY?!?!?” around 3 times, and I said yes each time. She was ecstatic. She asked me some of the usual questions which I easily answered. I then dropped the FB stuff at the house and got back in the car.

From there my sister asked me who she could tell. I said yes to her friend that is practically an adopted sister to me. I also said yes to these two sisters that love me (the older sister that knows me better like screams “BOBERT!!!!” and runs to hug me whenever she sees me) and also have a gay brother I had no ideas they had. I also said yes to girl she s friends with who lives near us. I also said yes to this girl who is awesome and is a model, manager of two bands on Warped Tour, and only 19 or 20 so yeah I was like sure. But one stipulation with the last one is that a friend of my sis’s who I like a lot, but has a brother that helps coach football for the JV, so I am VERY animate that she has to keep it on the down-low or just not tell here and the other friend, though I know it would be awesome if they knew lol.

So we then went back home and she went and told her friends while I started watching Hard Candy. I love the movie so much! You have to see it! It is about Ellen Page who plays a girl who seduces a photographer online. The guy is a pedophile and she knows it. They go back to his place and then shit just happens. It is so well written, the cinematography is amazing, and the lighting just changes the whole tone! You have to see it!

When my sister was done talking to the people she comes and tells me that the two sisters want me to meet their brother sometime. I go cool, can I see a pic of him (I know pervy but hey I am interested lol). So my sister goes on FB and shows me his profile picture. He is so cute!!!!! Like seriously, and like I really want to meet him now. And if he is as nice as his sisters then I think he would be an awesome friend to have!

Okay there is more I could talk about but I really do not have the time and I need to get ready to go to my sister’s birthday dinner because she is home and not going to come back when her real birthday is, so yeah, I am going to go and get ready.

Life Putters and Wanders,


Friday, July 30, 2010

Well I Am Now Out To Another Person!

Well I just got motivated!

So life has been good lately. Football is going well. Internship is still fun, though boring at times. I actually am getting a life lmao! I am sadly sick, but whatever I will get over it quickly I hope!

But none of those topics are my motivation for blogging today. My motivation has sprung from and unlikely occurrence that happened last night.

So 10 O’clock last night I was watching Nip/Tuck because every season has not been put on Netflix Instant Streaming. As I was watching the first episode of the final season, I got a phone call from Nick asking if I want to go and hang with him and Mark at Mark’s house. So I was like, “Hell yeah!” and got dressed and ready to go, but knew I had to ask the parents. I first ask my dad who was fixing the old microwave we have that was broken…wait breaking new, it broke again! So I ask him and he says the usual, “Go ask your mother.” I then head to my parent’s room where my mother is in her recliner on her computer watching some reality show (I think). I ask her if I can go and she give3s me a, “It is your choice; I don’t think you should, but it is your choice”. (I knew I would get that answer) I slowly start to leave when she says how I am lucky because the parents would not have let my sister go at this time and she decided to give me a 12 o’clock curfew. I then continue to slowly leave the room when she says she really thinks I should not go because I am sick and should not be (possibly) contaminating/infecting others. I then go to the kitchen to get the keys, again slowly, when my mom walks and talks with dad about the idea and finally they decide I am not going to go because I am sick.

You all have no idea how happy I was when they FINALLY said “No!” I mean not only was I asking for it by how slow I was leaving the rooms/house, but I just really wanted a definitive answer. I truly love when my parents actually make parental definitive decisions because that like NEVER happens! I then pout back the car keys and head back up stairs and start watching the rest of the Nip/Tuck episode.

When the episode was over I decided to check my Gmail and saw I had one new connection request on the GYC. The guy was cute and I hope he messages me since he lives right next to me lol. But while accepting the connection I saw I just received a new message. So I go and click on the icon hoping it was the cutie I just accepted giving a hello message, but nope. I was in for a surprise.

The first thing I see is the profile pic and the guy looks cute, so I click on it and look at his profile and I look at the picture in a larger frame and the guy looks a little familiar. I then hop back to the page with the message and read it, the message reads:

Hey... surprising to see you on here. Yeah, kinda cool to know that there are other gay people @ [name of my high school]

My response to the message to the guy was:

Yeah lol. [name of person that looks similar to the guy] is that you?

My actual response (that I posted on Twitter) was this:

UMMM UMMM UMMMMM!!!!!! FUCK maybe or not IDK! Someone from my school just found me on the GYC!

SHIT!!! That mean he just found my blog!!!!!!!!

Yeah I was definitely freaking out. To calm myself down I go and watch some more Nip/Tuck and fall asleep amazingly.

When I wake up it is 7:35 and I instantly go and check the GYC and see I have a message and it is him telling me I am correct and that we should talk on AIM. We then talk for like 3 second when he has to leave to go hiking, so he gives me his cell phone number to text. We exchange 3-5 texts before we stop. Since it was the morning I was neither nervous nor scared, I was just like, “Holy fuck is my phlegm yellow AND brown!”

I then looked at Twitter and say Nic asked if I wanted to talk, so I got on Skype and we did, but it was with Lunty and VBoy (SMEXY) joining in lol. After a while Nic had to go for a bit and the convo kind of lulled.

I then decided to go and take some more Sudafed and make some food. After a bit of decision making I decided on pancakes. Not regular pancakes though, banana-macadamia-nut-blueberry-chocolate-chip pancakes. I made a regular recipe and was able to get 8 pancakes out of that. I ate 3 for breakfast with sugar-free syrup and they were delicious, though a little burnt sadly!

After breakfast I went back up stairs and talked on the convo for a bit more. In the middle I decided to watch “Dead Snow” a foreign film about Nazi Zombies, it was okay, good for not paying much attention though! While watching the movie, Shaun decided that he now hates me because I am weird and is no longer going to talk to me. At 1 I decided I was hungry again and decided to make some food. After a 30 minute search I figured out what to make. I made Spaghetti with turkey tomato sauce. It was delicious! Yeah I think I can cook lol, but I mean I was just in the mood for cooking today hahaha.

When I was done eating the delicious food I prepared, the Skype convo ended and I decided to watch a Lisa Lampanelli special that was On Demand. I loved it! Lisa is so offensive in the most perfect way that just makes it too damn funny! Oh and I love her gay jokes! They are too damn funny and kind of correct at times lmao.

I then went upstairs when that was over to watch some more Nip/Tuck. In the middle of an episode I got a call from the dude asking if we could meet at a Starbucks or something to chat. I told him I could not because I am sick, but that I probably could tomorrow. So I think we are going to meet tomorrow and talk about being gay and everything. So yeah please try and keep me up to blogging about it, PLEASE?!?

I was soon called down to help the parents with something and I fed the dogs. We then had sushi for dinner. After dinner we watched “Whip It” which is such an awesome movie. When that ended I went back to my room and watched some more Nip/Tuck and set up a Dropbox for Oliver so he can easily get his Queer as Folk fix!

Well I am going to say that is enough for tonight so:

Life Putters and Wanders,


Thursday, July 22, 2010

Got Motivated!

Hey everyone! Please try and make me blog every night! You know I want to; I just want people to motivate me to!

So today is a nice one to talk about because well it summarized everything that happened over the past few days!

Today I woke up at 8 or so and decided to start to get ready for meeting Rik and the dentist. So I went and got some laundry ready (including my black with teal striped v-neck) and put them in the washing machine. I then went up stairs and showered…which reminds me I need to get more body wash! I then went back downstairs with my toothbrush and the black skinny Pride-jeans. I printed out directions to every where I am going while down there. I also brushed my teeth so they looked freshly clean for the dentist. At 10 the laundry was done and I left the house.

I got there a few minutes early and waited a while to get seated. But I was at least entertained by some fish in a nice aquarium. There was this one that was really interesting; it bullied others and had this like seas anemone type thing that he would roll it; I was really interested in him! I was then called in at around 10:55 and I had a panoramic x-ray, which was my first. It was odd, but nice and much easier than usual x-rays. This weird panel thing went around my head and scanned my teeth; it was cool though! I was then taken to my chair and I waited for a while to actually get an assistant to clean my teeth and when she was about to start, she stopped. I then waited a bit more and my dentist came and did all the plaque stuff and everything. He then told me my teeth were good; no cavities, but I have to get my wisdom teeth removed :-(!!

From there I left for Rik’s house. It was complete fail! I went too far on the first try and then went on the wrong road the second lol, but I did get there at like 12:07 and I parked and he came out of his house. He looked way different than I thought, but he did say we looked like crap (he kind of did, I think he should have at least shaved!) So we walk to a park and I am just awkward and shy! (I just am I really am!) So we talked (he talked; I said “yeah” a lot) and it was just okay. I don’t know, I was just too awkward in my opinion, but I was quite clumsy as I usually am lol. At 1 I left gladly and left for my internship.

So I get there and I am instantly put up to help with everything because we had this guitarist from Sacramento come down and record here. So I start by getting the guy’s set list, then I check the mics, then I help with the Character Gen so we have good opening titles, then I m put on the board and we start to record. While I was working down in the studio these two new cute Asian guys were on two of the three cameras. I think I will talk about what we did yesterday now because I found it interesting and I mean hell it is what I want to blog about!

So yesterday we had a singer and his 4 back up dancers come in. So the guy’s name was Xavier and he was clearly gay (I think, lol) and his one male back up dancer, Karl, was also extremely gay (again from what I can tell). Karl was wearing a nice graphic tee, some shorts (I forget), had weird hair cut for his blond hair, and wore a these Dorothy suspender straps! I am sorry but I am guilty of laughing a bit. Xavier also wore a very pink leather (IDK) jacket. So the two new Asians were behind me and they were talking about the guys (gays) and were saying like they are hot and stuff like that. I thought they were gay and out! I was so happy! So I started to loosen up to see if they had enough gaydar to notice me and maybe talk to me!

So yeah we recorded Xavier and his dancers and it was actually okay, I liked his music! The dancing was also okayish, but still it was good! I was on audio the whole time. And yeah that is what happened yesterday pretty much. The only other thing is that we recorded two takes of it and yeah. WAIT!!!! Okay so one thing I forgot to say. So I talked to Mark after the internship about them and asked if there are gay. He said, “Wow no! There are totally homophobic!” Yeah I think I am really bad a reading sarcasm, but then again I was not looking at them when they said what they said, so who knows?

So back to today, I just really think the two Asians are so cute. One is like just the perfect type of hunky and seems nice. The other is also nice and has small, stud earrings that actually work well on him! So yeah I just am going to still be a little gayer than normal and see what happens incase Mark was wrong.

So I was on audio for the guitarist, but in the middle Dave asked me to go and work on the other computer in the editing bay to marks and crate chapters for the Xavier performance and chooses which take was better. So I had to re-watch it all again, it was not as funny on video this time and it was before lol, but still it was cool because I think I am getting better at Final Cut, which will really help me next year in Film because I am so going to need to start becoming better at Final Cut! When the guitarist was done and I finished my editing, we were asked to do movie reviews. Mark and I were chosen to give a review of Inception. Yes I saw it on Saturday with him and Nick. We saw it in D-Box seats (Google them!) and I have to say it was one of the best movie experiences I have ever had and the movie was just so amazing. I gave it a 9.5 of 10 because there were a few slight flaws in my opinion, but I mean they just have to be noticed in a review and score of the movie. I thing the movie definitely needs some Oscar nods though! After those interviews internship was over and I went home.

When I got home I felt like cooking for some reason, but my sister took the car so I had to wait for her to get back to go out to the store and buy the food I needed. I got what I needed and ran into three school peeps and then went home. I did all the chopping and stirring and stuff of what I made and in the end I had a nice delicious Picadillo. It was good!

After that I watched SYTYCD and I am now blogging, yay!

Now time for a challenge post (only 1)!

Challenge Day 14 – Someone You’ve Drifted Away From

Dear Jason,

Hey Jason! I am sorry I have stopped talking to you. I don’t know why, but I just started to think we are too different, but it would be cool to hang again! Who knows? Talk to you again hopefully!


Life Putters and Wanders,

Robert BP

Friday, July 16, 2010

Back! Now Keep Me Motivated!

Hello format for my blog Word Document! It has been a while! I would like to say sorry for not using you lately because I really have had stuff to write about, but I just never let myself so that. I really hope you can forgive me and push me to continue using you because you know I love using you to blog, you know it just made my day have an ending that was much needed!

So yeaH I AM BACK AND GOING TO TRY TO BLOG AGAIN EVERYDAY! (Sorry caps lock, but hey I don’t feel like correcting it and that sentence deserves some emotion) I really want help staying motivated for the next few days so I post because I really want to!

So I think I should end my Pride story, but I want to end it quickly so here we go!

I got on a BART 8:40, it was full of gays with one really cute couple in front of me, they just looked amazing. As I rode I got steadily more and more depressed over not meeting Rik. I nearly cried like 4 times, and cried twice (a few tears each cry). The first person I texted was Erik because he is always there for me! So I text him and the convo goes down quickly and I am still really down. Then, as a turn of events, out of the blue, CJ texts me! (I love texting CJ, especially when he is not in his self-centered, spoiled moods, sorry CJ but you are, it is good Kathryn is like that or it would be hard to talk to you, but I do love talking to you and I am so happy about what has happened to you while in DC!) So we talk and he helps me….oh and before I forget, the Tobolowsky Files also really helped, I love the podcast so much! he helps by really making me see I have a crush on Rik, but the thing is it isn’t a crush. I am now 99% sure I was just so disappointed to NOT meet him that I misinterpreted my sadness for love and then blah blah blah, lol. So I am talking to CJ when Rik texts me, and of course I lie a bit (about how sad I am) and we just text and I cry one of the times here.

I finally get to my BART station after transferring where I looked at a cute gay (1/2 of the couple, they are not a couple I guess lol (but they sure kissed like one)). So I go out to the parking lot and cannot find my car! I freak out and call the number they have posted everywhere in case your car is towed (I thought my car was towed). I get no answer so I go to the desk and I am then told that I may be on the wrong side. I am freaking out still, but I go through to the right side and yup there is my car! I was so relieved and happy!

I then drove home and CJ asked me to tell him a story, so I did while I was walking the dogs. I was really tired after that so I went to bed and slept.

Now for the aftermath:

So if you remember I went t searching all over for a Wells Fargo and finally found one. Well my parents found the transaction online lol. So they asked why I was in SF and how I got there. I told them versions of the truth. The whole truth on how I got there and a partial truth for what I did while there. They were unhappy I did it but are not punishing me because I did a good job taking care of everything while they were gone. As a reward (WTF) they are paying for me to see Kathy Griffin and (possibly) Young Frankenstein, but IDK.

Okay think I will dedicate the rest of this post to doing a few challenge days and then I will resume my usual everyday blogging tomorrow and talk about my day (finally!)

AND I fell asleep lol, sorry everyone!

Now for the challenges, I think I will do three today to start catching up!

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to -- I have no idea who too right this to!

Dear Brittney Murphey

I miss you too damn much! I loved all of your movies and I really am just so sad you could not have done more and you died too early! I also cannot believe how little press coverage you received when you died; I know you were one of many celebrities that die at that time, but hell yours was one of the more shocking ones! I miss you so much!


Day 12 — the person you hate most/caused you a lot of painanother hard one!

Dear (I really cannot think of anyone right now!) person that I will meet eventually,

I really hope I hate you for reasons that are neither selfish nor egotistical. I hope that I can get over hating you, but I have no idea what you will do so we will see.


Day 13 — someone you wish could forgive youI am just getting blanks constantly!

Dear person in the future,

I am very sorry for what I have done, unless I truly meant it and you took it the wrong way. I don’t know what I did yet, but I am sure I can sure I can apologize for it in some way! I hope you will forgive me!


Life Putters and Wanders,


Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Kevin and Challenge 9 and 10

So I texted Kevin asking if he wanted to meet up and almost immediately I received a text back saying we wanted to. SO we decided to meet where the Backstreet Boys were playing. I went into the crowd and watched whoever was playing waiting to be texted by him or Rik so I can find him/him, but I got sucked into the middle of the crowd and it was so suffocating and ugh wow it was almost terrible, but I eventually got out! And I finally received a text from him he was there. And we kept texting until I knew he was Stage Left and at lamp posts. I then ask if he meant the tall or short ones and he answered the short ones, with the guy “wearing a purple shirt and pink bandana and my friend is wearing bikini top candy and shorts” I then looked to the left and saw them!

So well I see who I think is them so I (awkwardly) go up to the guy in a purple shirt and…forget his name for a second lol *dies*, so I checked my phone quickly and saw a K and remembered his name is Kevin! So I say “Kevin, right?”

Kevin responds, “Yeah! Robert?”

“Yeah! Hi! Nice to meet you!”

“Hi!” Kevin then introduced me to his two girl friends, Alex and IForgetHerName. “We saw you searching for us, but I had no idea if that was you!”

We then talked about a bunch of stuff and it was fun just hanging with people and it really was not extremely awkward lol. So the girls decided they wanted to dance so we went to this Prius booth lol and looked at my phone and noticed that my text to Rik never sent! So I decided to text him and when I looked up they were gone! I decided okay well it was fun meeting him, so I text Rik again saying want to meet, but as I write that I get a text from Kevin saying he lost me and how to find him! So I decide why go for improbable when you already have the constant (that makes no sense I think lol). So I went to them and we danced (well I swayed lol, I have no idea how to dance lol) and then the girls said they wanted to go to the Cat Scratch Club (the strip club they used in Rent the movie for the CSC). It takes us a few minutes and then we find it and take a few pictures of it and stuff, yeah it was old, closed, beaten down, and in a seedy neighborhood, but it was cool seeing it though!

We were all thirsty at that time so we walked to a Starbucks and got stuff to drink and continued on and decided to go to Washington Square Park I think and just sit on the grass and hang. It was fun and just relaxing. While there Alex gave me one of her bracelets she made for Pride. It is rainbow colored and awesome! I wore it every day after Pride until my parents came home; I even wore it during football practice! It just felt awesome having something signifying I am gay on me lol, it was quite validating though no one saw it because I started to wear it as an anklet!

So we just hung for a while and Kevin and the two girls decided they should leave so I said good bye to them because I was really determined to meet with Rik! So I texted him and then called him, I got voicemail instantly! FUCK! I just continued walking until I got to this place where I found had working Wi-Fi and sent him a tweet and everything! While at that place I sat trying to get internet and be optimistic (even though I am quite pessimistic lol), a mother and her teenage daughter (younger than me) ask to use my phone because they need to call someone, so I give it to them (I am really nice sometimes!) While the daughter, who swore a lot lol, was trying to get a ride the mother talked to me and asked how I liked Pride and stuff like that. She THEN asked if I wanted some Tequila LMAO, I was like WTF she has a teenage daughter who must be just a year or two younger than me and she is offering me TEQUILA!?! So I told her I am straight edge. Of course she has no idea what that means so I tell her, I do not drink alcohol nor do drugs. She responded by saying, “That must be hard, how you do it?”

I just say “I say no!” lol I mean I do lol, but wow she was kind of weird hahahha. She then asks if I am going to Castro, I have never been (Sorry Aaron!!). She says it is the real place to be for Pride, so I am so going there next year for sure!! So when they are done with my phone they leave and I decide to go get something to eat, so on the way of leaving the area there are people on the top of a thing lol, I have a few pics of it, and the police are coming in like teams of 6 to go and like take people off of it, it was crazy. Right when I saw the cops I went into journalist mode and took out my camera to take videos and pictures of what might happen, but nothing happened and before it was over I started to walk away. I went to an Asian doughnut shop and bought a donut and a coconut soda, they were delicious and I then called Rik one more time then left to get a BART home.

Okay there is one more post I have to do for this, but it should be short and I will right it and post it tomorrow hopefully!

Now onto Challenge Day 9 and 10!

Day 9: Someone you wish you could meet!

Dear future boyfriend,

Meet me already!!!


Day 10: Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Dear Mitchell,

Hey Mitch we should so talk sometime, I mean I think Mark might even go to the beach house this year if things stay civil lol, but yeah it would be awesome to talk to you more. You know you are an awesome guy and yeah I know you will make it big in theater or comedy writing, but yeah we should so talk!


Life Putters and Wanders,


Monday, July 5, 2010


Well I want to start off this post by saying I am sorry I have not been posting lately. I have just not been given the time, kind of lol. So these next few posts are going to be the rest of my Pride story and the challenge posts that I have yet to do.

So I had just got off the BART at Embarcadero because that was one of the places Rik told me to get off if I wanted to. I then go looking for a Wells Fargo because I really needed some money. It took me around like ten minutes to find one even though there were banks everywhere lol. Then decided to go to a Starbucks and get a drink while checking Twitter and stuff. I go there and get a Chai iced latte I think, lol it was a week ago, how would I remember such a minute detail? I then go and try to get Twitter and stuff and the Wi-Fi isn’t working :-(! Apparently when I upgraded to iOS4, it forgot the AT&T log in! So when I got a text from Rik saying to go to the Civic Center I was fucked. I had no idea where or how to get there!

I then decided to and follow the big street where the parade clearly went through. I follow it and its progressively getting dirtier and more and more beer cups and bottles are on the ground. I then look far ahead and see what looks like a giant crowd. So I keep going and keep going until I am in the center of a giant crowd. Everyone is going through these gates so I go in and there were booths everywhere and people dressed up (down?) it were crazy. Oh I also saw my first naked penis in real life, it was disgusting! It was the penis of a really fat, hairy, 60 year old, yah never wants to become or see that again!

I then continued to walk around and started to suffocate in the crowd. I had no idea where I was, but I now know I was at the civic Center where Rik was. He actually texted me asking where I was and I said so. He then texted back he was in the same place. I texted "Lets meet now"; it never sent! I was really tired of waiting for him where I was; I was still suffocating, so I decided to go and buy water from Pete’s and come back. He still had not texted me and was not at the corner, so I remembered Kevin, another friend form the GYC who said he would be at Pride.

After much searching I finally found his phone number and decided to text him!

Now for challenge day #8: your favorite internet friend

Dear Noc,

I truly want to say how awesome you are! You are sweet! Kind! And just a plain great guy! You never try and give up on someone and you forgive their mistakes! You know how to joke and we all envy you and Domi! Your blog was one of the highlights of my blog reading! I want to thank you for not only introducing me to SO MANY awesome people but also you were one of the reasons I started blogging! Nic you sent a tweet saying, “Dear strangers, don’t stay unknown!” and my twitter name was mentioned in that tweet! Your tweet was one of the small inspirations to start blogging; I became known! Thank you Nic for being awesome and always staying cool when I made a bad joke! You are lucky and you are kind and you are so forgiving!


Well I think I still have 2 or 3 more posts about Pride to do, and I still have to catch up with the challenge, SORRY ERIK (who I am currently talking to)!

Life Putters and Wanders,


Friday, July 2, 2010

Challenge Day day whatever

Never posted yesterday so here is yesterday’s challenge post.

Dear ex-crush Manuel,

I first saw you in Bio and thought you were amazing and that could not wait to talk to you. Little did I know that later that class we would for only a few seconds? It was cool and I loved your German accent, especially since you were a foreign exchange student, but I did not care that you were leaving I figured that you were cute and that something might happen. Though nothing did and you became Ansha’s boyfriend I was happy you found someone you clearly loved. It was nice having eye candy in Science!


Also yesterday had a lot of Skype convos in the end that have now affected today A LOT!

Well got to go and walk the dogs then do my second post for today to write about Pride Part 3 and today.

Life Putters and Wanders.


Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Pride Part 2 and Challenge Day 5 or 6 IDK!

Time for Pride Part 2!

So I left home at 12:30 expecting to get to the BART station at 1:15 and get on a train and leave for San Francisco and get there around 2! That did not happen! The ride there was fine, but when I got to the Fremont station I could not find parking and searched for over 10 minutes. Thankfully when I parked in the back, the BART was still on the platform. I made sure I still had everything and left to get a ticket and everything.

I buy my ticket, go through the gate, and walk up the stairs. When I get there the BART has left, fuck. The board says that the next Richmond train was in 20 minutes so I hung tight and texted Rik that I got to the station while taking some pictures.

The train arrived in 15 minutes and I got in the front of the first box…no section…no ugh whatever they are called…and just sat there and waited for the train to start. As the train started moving a group of 3 girls and one cute gay guy come into the car and talk a lot of gossip. Since I have nothing else I want to listen to I eavesdrop…hey who knows they could have talked about a gang or something IDK lol.

As they continued to talk they got to sex stuff and the cute as hell gay guy said he has done nothing, not even…uh-ha, or touched an…uh-ha (that is really how they asked him and he reacted, I am not making any of that up lol). Then the girl’s starts to say what they have done and wow two of them were total sluts lol, but it was fun listening to them for that while.

At the Bay Fair station I have to transfer over to the Daly City train and that took 10 minutes. I then got on the train and was once again in the front of the car when the same group came into the car lol. They did not sit near me this time, but I did get the cute gay as eye candy lol. This train took around 30-40 minutes but I got off at Embarcadero and I was in San Francisco.

I am going to end that there. Umm I don’t think I have time to write about today, but let’s just say I had a lot of fun at my internship today and football was good.

When I came home I watched D-List 3x it was so good tonight! I talked to Erik, who is awesome, if you have not started to read his blog, DO IT NOW! Please. I then talked with CJ actually I talked to him A LOT today, and I love talking to him! I told him today that he should consider doing on one date with his DM because he clearly cares for CJ, but is just expressing it in a stalker way lol, but yeah I hope he does, but I think he really likes getting off, so IDK! I then talked to Rik for like 3 texts then he disappeared, which makes me wonder… I finally talked to Matt and he describes me as, wow I hope no one or him is offended if I quote this lol, “you're one of the best people to talk to I’ve come across…, truly, some people are infuriating to talk to, but I haven't found you that way yet haha” yeah I was really embarrassed but honored that HE SAID THAT LOL (fuck caps lock lol).

I then walked my dogs at 12 and stated to write this, but decided to masturbate because I was horny all night!

Now my challenge post: stranger!

Dear Stranger,

Hi! Nice to meet you! If you are a girl no vagina talk, but we can gawk and compare men lol. If you are a guy and straight, then let’s talk about football and stuff. If you are a guy and gay or bi then we can talk about anything unde3r the sun (and even hidden from the sun usually). I hope you like me and know that I can be bluntly honest at times, so am as blunt and honest with me as possible. I hope to meet you soon I guess.


Well I am not going to be late for my internship today; I was late yesterday by 30 minutes.

Life Putters and Wanders,


Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Pride: Part 1 and Today (6/28/10)

It is 10:55 and I am going to walk my dogs soon, but right now I really want to talk about what I did leading up to leaving on BART to San Francisco!

I woke up at 8 or so and checked tweets and everything and then Rik texted me so I started to talking to him while I fed the dogs and everything. I then decided that now was the time to go to Target and drove there while still texting Rik (I actually just texted him most of the time until I got to SF. So I went in and go searching for v-necks and instantly find them. I go and try them on and decided that I look really good in a large black with teal stripes small v V-neck, but I also buy one in navy blue and some more Cargo shorts or whatever they are called. The total is $40 and I leave happy. I then get home and have a bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios with banana while watching the latest Doctor Who; it was the Van Gough one that was really good! After that I had to clean up some more Sampson diarrhea, it was way easier this time because I knew what I was doing, oh and I think he did it in the middle of the night.

After that piece of shit part of the day I went an took a shower an shave a bit, even a tiny bit of my chest (which I will do fully sometime lol) I then got ready in my clothes. The tight skinny black skinny jeans that show off my ass according to Kathryn, the V-neck (which I love), and a normal belt. So yeah that is where dressing malfunction one occurred. SO this beautiful rainbow belt I bought from Hot Topic is apparently too small by one size lol. So I am now determined to slim down and wear it by next Pride. Now dressing malfunction number 2. The jeans I was wearing (first pair I ever remember wearing) have hole in the middle, small but enough for someone to see my boxers if I am sitting down lol, so yeah. I then pack my bag with the directions to the BART station, the Kodak camera, some gum, some spare clothes, and my phone, iPod, wallet, and car keys. I was ready to go.

Now going to walk the dogs and continue my erotic story I am creating for CJ!

I have now decided to post about Pride in parts so that was Part 1. Also if you want to see what I wore I am willing to put it back on and take a few shots of it depending how many people are interested in seeing it. There needs to be at least 4 interested and there are currently 2, but if I get 6 I will take 3 pictures and post them, so comment if you want me to do that! Now onto yesterday (it is now 1:21 AM),

I woke up at 5 because I could not sleep well and I watched a bunch of Futurama, got the dogs out and fed them early, took a shower, and read the tweets. I then had a bagel and some fruit for breakfast and left at 10 for my SAT diagnostic. It took 4 hours, but did not feel that long lol, and all I really did was literally take the SAT, but as practice. So in between sections during a break I decided to text Rik because earlier we were texting a bit and apparently his grandmother was feeling weird and stuff so I helped him a tiny bit. So I asked if she was okay and we just talked for a bit over texts, which is always fun.

When I was done I drove over to Q-Cup and got a delicious (nearly orgasmic) Thai Pearl Milk Tea, ugh so amazing! And I drove like 20 minutes through the same areas to find the Yasioo to get a gyro, mmmmmm amazing. And I got home I planned on starting this post, but that never happened lol. Instead I talked to Erik for a while and he is always fun to talk to! Yeah also he is cute, though he picks one of the worst ones for his profile picture lol. The other thing is that that is his smile lol yeah I think it is the braces (he is SO ready to get them off lol, I mean no one usually smiles that big with them on lol jk!) We talked about a lot of stuff and he is just awesome, go read his blog! I then left for football at 4:53

I had football, we worked out and everything and my stomach started to feel weird, I am starting to think it is because I have been eating way less than normal, which is actually a thing I think, but the pain was annoying! We then ended and we start practice and I have now learned I have been moved to Left Offensive Tackle (DAMN I loved being right, but who knows things change!) We then just practiced for a while and when it was over two players I am friendly with asked for rides, so of course I obliged (BAD BOY!) and I drove them and one of them, Ohio (a nickname we gave him because we came from Ohio for his freshman year), mentioned Pride was this weekend and that apparently people were shot. I think he had a bit of contempt in his voice, but was very matter-of-fact. He also said that it was, “a 17 year old and his partner.” I had no idea this happened and I was really sad inside, but tried to show as little of it on the outside. And I think the couple even died, I will check but that is so sad, and I am so happy it is going down as a hate crime! Okay this is the story, wow that is sad!

I then came home, ate a delicious shrimp salad with Thousand Island dressing and starts to watch Lie to Me. I think I started to talk to CJ first and we just talked about nothing until later which I will get to. Then Matt started to talk to me and we started talking about Skins after I talked a bit about Pride, and it was fun talking to him about Skins, I think Netflix is now the best thing ever! We eventually got to talking about Isaac whom I like talking about with him because if I help him I do feel better and I know that it is always nice to have someone to talk to when you are feeling down. Then Erik started talking to me and we really talked about nothing, but I we did argue about relationships because he has a boyfriend who he has only talked to online, and I feel that you cannot be in a relationship with a person until you have at least met them lol. Then Rik texted me and that convo kind of died quickly lol... But I am so jealous that he has a boyfriend, but I mean it sucks for him because he is moving to LA for what sounds like a year, so that really sucks for him!

At 10 CJ asked me to continue my story. Now I don’t really want to introduce it here, but let me tell you it is an erotic story that actually just got to the sexual part, but I a texting him, so I am a little scared, but whatever it happens lol. I mainly got to the sexual part while walking the dogs. At 1 I was asked to stop because he was really tired but could not see anymore, but the problem was that I was real near the money shot, so I guess I will have to re-tool the story a bit to make that part longer lol. Oh yeah I also now have a compromise with him, if he cums while reading what I wrote, he HAS to take a picture of it, so I guess if he cums on his body get a picture of cum on his body lol. Oh and you want to know the craziest part about the story I am texting him, I have NEVRR done any of the sexual acts mentioned in the story LMAO!

Now for my letter to my dreams.

Dear Dreams,

I love you guys you are amazing and make my nights a bit more interesting. If you ever want to make a long running story where I have a boyfriend and stuff, I am totally ready! Also if you can please give me a wet dream, I will love you even more! One last thing, why is it that the only dream I completely remembered from you is the one where I had to kill my science teacher because he was a terrorist?


Well that is really it because right after that I wanked and then went to bed.

Life Putters and Wanders,