Media Class Was Crazy Today!

So today was kind of a good day.

In Spanish I took a GIANT test that lasted the entire period for the entire class to finish.

Then in my media class we have started this cool like business unit and today we had media professionals and we learned 3 big things today:

· The first was that in order to write a good résumé when you have not a lot of experience on your plate is to write about what skills you are good at and like to do. So we pretty much spent 20 minutes helping each other out figuring what we are good at doing (and of course playing around with other people by making fun of each there a bit, but I mean we all knew that other was joking)

· The second thing we learned about was interviewing and how CRAZY it is I mean that way it was explained was that:

1. First you call in and have an over the phone interview

2. Then you have a second over the phone interview

3. Then you either have a real interview or a third over the phone one

4. Then you either have another interview like one-on-one or you have a 5 hour extravaganza where you talk to just about everyone in the company and are interviewed by them, called a panel interview

5. Finally you either get the job or go home and commit suicide or die because of the crazy stressfulness of all the interviewing

· So am I the only one who NEVER wants to get interviewed for a job, EVER

· So the final thing we learned was networking and how to mooch off of our friends and dental-hygienists (yeah I know WHY THE FUCK would you proposition a dental hygienist if they know any companies that are looking to fill spaces in their company?) in order to get a job

That was what I learned in my media class today and I actually think it will be useful in life, unlike the natural log of a tree, jk there is no such think I don’t think.

So that is it!

Life Putters and Wanders,

HMG

Short Post

Okay not a lot to talk about.

I maxed this week in weightlifting so far I have:

Dead Lift-355lbs

Bench-185lbs

Back Squat-250lbs (I think I kind of forgot what I did it might have been higher than that)

So yeah that is pretty much it except for everyday i have been talking to whycanti16 he is doing awesome and is just so awesome...just so you know he called dibs on Tim Urban LOL!

Okay well that is it, PLEASE give you advice on Katie's situation, at least do it for me!

Life Putters and Wanders,

HMG

Katie Needs the Help of the Gays!!

Okay well I have some thinks about my life I could be telling you but I have decided to do something selfless, and that is get your opinions on a situation Katie is in. I mean they say gays are great at helping straight girls with their boy problems so let’s test that.

So lately she has been having boy trouble. So let me lay out her two choices.

Ryan: He is clearly infatuated by Katie and was been wanted to be her boyfriend for around 2 months. He is nice to her and great to her, but he is kind of bi-polar and clingy, both things that she finds quite annoying in a guy. So around a month ago she was going to tell him she liked him also and before she could tell him that he came to me and wanted to know what he could say to not hurt her feelings if she asked him that. This was a complete surprise to me because Ryan would always want to be close to Katie during lunch and one time they even kissed (although Katie instigated it), but it was still like a why the fuck moment. So being the loyal friend to Katie I told her and she was pissed at him and vowed she was not into him or a high school relationship (which I actually have a bet with her that she will enter into another relationship by Senior Graduation). Now they eventually reconciled and he has confessed he like her a lot and wants to be her boyfriend but Katie has told he she just wants to be friends, but she still has some feelings for him. And in response to that Ryan said he is willing to wait for her. So now he is waiting.

Now there is the other guy (who I personally want her to be with)

Brandon: So I actually have never met Brandon, all I know I have learned from Katie. So like late last year Katie started to befriend this guy that goes to a nearby school and is also a Junior like Katie. So according to her he is “Cute (he is), funny, sweet, caring, masculine, has an 8-pack, and loves her”. So he really wanted to be in a relationship and feel for her because of her personality, although looks probably helped Katie too, she is busty. So he wanted to be with her and she said no, but they still talked and were friends. Then for like a month before and during the whole Ryan situation he kind of “fell of the face of the Earth”. Now he is back and really wants to be with her and she REALLY likes him from what I can tell, but wants to take things slow. Oh yeah she also described him as “almost perfect” for her, so yeah just though I should say that.

Brandon looks a like him except this guy is cuter.

Now I my advice to Katie was to try and hang with Brandon and go as far as kissing to see if she likes him, and if she does then she should go farther, eventually. But she is really sad that she might hurt Ryan because eh si waiting for her and does not want to break his heart. My logic for this is that his heart is already broken because she is not with him now and that he stopped her from truly loving him when he made his douche move, so that si my opinion now I want yours?

Should Katie go for Brandon or just stay without him and not hurt Ryan? Should she go for Ryan? Should she go for neither and win her hundred bucks? Or should she take a different option?

Okay please comment on this it will really help her!

Life Putters and Wanders,

HMG

P.S. In me news it turns out I am WAY shorter than I thought, though I am the tallest in my family. I am 5’7’’. Oh and I lost 2 pounds from the last time I weighed myself so YAY!

Skype

Okay Skype me I love it it is the best. I talked to Nic today and he si also Just AWESOME, so yeah use skype to contact me.

This is short because I am talking on Skype.

lrtackle15

Life Putters and Wanders,

HMG

My 50th

So you guys want to know another reason I am in such a melancholy mood right now is my family.

Currently my entire family is here, that now includes my grandma who now lives here. So when I was younger both my parents worked and my sister and I had a nanny who would just be around and she was always awesome. So my real interactions with my family were during the weekend and even those were little and enough. As we grew older we let her go and I got a little bit more interaction and was happy to have it.

NOW it feels like I am being smothered. My parents have been getting home earlier (except my dad which is good because I saw him a lot while he was laid off) and when they are not home my grandmother is. The real problem I guess is my grandma I mean she always wants to talk, is really annoying, and leaves no privacy. I mean it is just too annoying having them all around now, I am used to being alone and independent. I do not advise being independent or alone, but I am able to cope with it well. So yeah I was used to one way of things and now that my family is fucking it up it frustrates and irritates me.

Well this is my 50^th post, so that is around 50 days, except for when I posted twice, and I have nothing special except this photo:

I also want to remind you all of the ways to contact me:

AIM/Twitter: lrtackle15

Gmail: lrtackle15@gmail.com

MSN: lrtackle15@hotmail.com

*New* Skype: lrtackle15

Life Putters and Wanders,

HMG

I Hate My Life!

So I just fucking hate myself right now. I really am not in a good mood and I made a mistake. My mistake was texting Katie, I mean it started with her responding to a text I sent hours ago. And she responded when I was in a bad mood. While I was talking to her she was being well, stupid, I know that is not the best thing to say but she was; and Katie if you are reading this then you should know I am still in that terrible mood and do not judge me on this.

I feel like I need to get away. I need to not be on the football team. I need to have more time to become what I want to become. I need to be me.

That is not going to happen anytime soon and I know it.

I truly hate my life, although I know it is not the worst, it is the only one I have lived and I hate it!

HMG

My Insecurity

Well I am feeling really…well…ugly right now. Like I just hate my body with a burning passion. I just really do not think anyone will like me because EVERYONE is shallow. We are wired to be that way from the media and hell I fall for it and so do my hormones or else I would not be gay. I know everyone is going to say you cannot be hideous or something like that, but it is not true. I am not going to show you what I look like because I do not trust any of you enough, except for one who has see what I look like and lied to me, but I am okay with that because he is awesome and caring. If you really want to know what I look like I will describe myself for you: I am 5’10 or 11 or 12, I truly have no idea but I am in that range, I am 240, and my hair sucks fucking shit and just does not work whatever way I put it. I truly feel that not a SINGLE person that I will find attractive will find me attractive and that is why I truly hate my body it I not appealing to others because I am not appealed by it.

So you know all of the pictures I post, well those are the ones I look up to and envy. I want to look like them but know it will never happen because I do not have that type of drive. I need someone that is going to be with me and want to lose the weight just as much as I do, but that is not going to happen as long as all I am doing is football is Olympic lifts which are doing nothing to change my mother fucking belly fat and thighs. I truly just hate my body and I also just do not love myself. I hate that I am editing what I say sometimes because I feel like it sounds stupid but I really should stop caring about what I write and more about getting fit, but football is really a time consuming sport that does not make the linemen look better and just makes the receivers buffer and cuter.

I know people may say I am being self-centered and that si because I am. I know people are in worse situations, but I am not in that situation so I do not think about it. I feel completely fine thinking about myself because the only person I hear in my head is myself and I frankly think that when I stop hearing that voice I am either dead, or it will never happen.

I feel this is my trued blog post to date and my favorite because it is me. To the point. It is insecure. It is blunt at times. It is inanimate, like I feel at times.

Hanschen Moritz Gabor

Short Post, I Am Getting Better

Okay I am kind of tired an I do not want to post much.

I just want to say I had an AWESOME time talking with WhyCantI tonight, he is just SO awesome!

I also want to congratulate GayAndy for getting his 200th follower, your blog is awesome and I love your blog and I know you already know that.

Rhythym the author of the Lottery was Shirley Jackson

Okay so that is pretty much it for me. If you truly want to know what happens during my day go and look at my twitter, sorry tman, it is the best way to know what i up with me and I usually update it at least 10 times a day or more.

Life Putters and Wanders,

HMG

Still Sick, Boring Day

Okay I was tied when I woke up still sick, but good enough to go to school. In science I learned I have a lot of homework to do by Thursday. Then in English I had to quickly read a short story called the Lottery, which as about a crazy tradition in a small town and people getting stoned. In history I learned about the atomic bombs and that I have a giant test in that class on Thursday.

Also today I was talkig with Katie and Swiss and we went into A LOT of discussions about vaginas, sorry if you despise that word, and I could NOT be myself because there were a some other people there, so that was annoying. Also Katie was talking about going to gay bars in San Francisco, but this was to one of her friends who does not know I am gay, but I know she will not care one bit, so I am hoping to go with them if they decide to go because…well…I would be like the ONLY gay person that would go with them! Lol

Okay not much to talk about, and please send em your ideas for what I should do for my 50^th post, I want to do something special.

Life Putters and Wanders,

HMG

formspring.me and today

Sick and bored so ask me anything http://formspring.me/lrtackle15

Okay so not a lot of stuff happened today and I am going to add this post to my previous one today.

Oh and please ask me some questions I love them, and it is so much easier having other come up with the questions than coming up with them myself.

Okay so the big thing today for me was that apparently when I am goig to New York City, I have no idea if I posted that I an earlier blog post, I am going to be in the audience for Live with Regis and Kelley, so if you want to possibly see me watch it on April 14^th and you might catch a glimpse of me.

And for those wondering how my sickness is, well I stayed home today, and it REALLY helped, so I think I should be good for when I go to New York, so I am happy.

Life Putters and Wanders,

HMG

P.S. I am nearing my 50th post and I am wondering what I should do, so if you have any ideas comment or email me them, okay? Thank you.